hsjnewbie | Hello, 2022! + Snow Man + (Reply)

Hello, it's late, but happy new year! ;)

It's been a while since I posted here, but I want to post something because now my fandom is expanding and so I'm trying to join more communities :) Well, I've got some posts I created in the past, but just in case, I don't want them to think that this is "a dead account." ^^ Even though I don't reveal too much about my private info/identity, I want them to know that I am real and, like I wrote in my introduction post, I created this account to access content for personal/private viewing.

Anyway, like I said, my fandom is now expanding. Nearing the end of 2021 I decided to make time to get to know Sakkun more and I ended up falling for the whole group. So here I've been fangirling over Snow Man ^^, in addition to JUMP. (JUMP will, of course, always have a special place in my heart. Especially Chinen, because if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be here^^).

I can't really explain why I love Sakkun and Snow Man. I just know I love them because I get excited when I see them, listen to their songs, or read something about them. That's just like how I feel with JUMP. (Gotta compare to how I feel bout JUMP 'cause with JUMP I'm already sure about my feelings, so it's like an "established standard" for myself. Haha). But, well, Snow Man is great! Every member has their own charms. Everyone is simply a bias-wrecker. That's how I know that I love the group and not just Sakkun. I've been listening to their old songs too and I can confidently say that I love them. Many of them! Some of them are so anime-ppoi too. So cool. Well, some songs I love more, some, maybe I just need to listen to them more. But again, that's also how I feel about JUMP's songs. I guess loving a group doesn't mean you have to like all their songs, right?^^ After all, loving someone means accepting what you don't really like about them either. (Come to think of it, I actually often feel second-hand embarrassment because of Sakkun. Haha Oh, my oshi, why???😂🙈✌💖🥰 )

But come think of it, do I actually have a tendency to fall for chaotic dorks? Haha But they're so fun I love them so much ;)

Anyway, at first I was anxious because you know how loud and noisy I can be hyping up about what I like on Twitter. Most of my moots and followers might follow me for JUMP only. So when I hyped up about Snow Man or other things, they might feel inconvenienced o.O But they can mute/unfollow, right? o.O But I'm happy that most of my JUMP moots are actually multi-fans. They don't always talk about JUMP. Some talk more about KAT-TUN now. Some about King & Prince. Some about SixTONES, Sexy Zone, etc. And I really love it 'cause I think that's a "healthy" way to fangirl. After all, it's our own time and money, so we're free to use it for any group we like, any group that makes us happy. Anyone has the very right to leave a fandom or join a new one, doesn't mean they're being a traitor or something. So yeah, I love my moots that way ;)

But maybe that's also because I've become more "chill" about interaction, especially after taking some time off because I was busy graduating, moving out n in, settling in n job hunting. When I was back on Twitter, it almost felt like I was a (complete) stranger. So I don't really bother interacting with people or new fans. I'm still responsive as always, though. If someone initiates an interaction, I'd definitely respond. I want them to feel appreciated^^ But yeah, in general, I don't really care anymore if people stop interacting with me, mute me, unfollow me, block me, or sth. If they stop interacting with me, then I can just stop interacting with them too. No hard feelings. Back then I would overthink wondering if I did something wrong. Now I still can't help getting curious about the why, but now I get over it faster and, thus, learn to just shrug it off quickly. I won't sweat it. The dramas that I've experienced and witnessed have taught me that often times it's people having an issue of their own but projecting their problems on others. If someone mistreats me, as long as I don't find them talking hostile about me, I'm okay, I'll even pretend I don't know it. After all, when they realize they've been doing something wrong, the guilt will weigh them down, not me. So I learn to just focus on my own stuff. As long as I don't talk about others behind their back, I guess it's ok?^^ After all, what people say about us doesn't define us, right? If anything, what we say about others is what defines us in some way, no?^^ (Gosh, writing this makes me look like I've got lots of people disliking me. LoL) But I mean, this is just my general reflection as a fangirl. It's not just from what I experienced but also based on what I observed from others' experiences^^

Ugh, I ended up writing too much. But, I don't want to end my post with something bitter. So let me end this with wishes for everyone to be happier in any fandom you're a part of now. May 2022 be nicer to us all, and may we be nicer to others this year too. Bye-bye ;)